|I think I was 3 here. Or maybe 5. I can never be sure. (;|
The best quote I've ever heard about birthdays is as follows…
- Eleven, Sandra Cisneros
I could not more accurately describe how I feel right now.
In the last year, the most important lesson that I've learned is this - Just because you get older, doesn't mean you get smarter. I used to think that by a certain age I'd have all the answers, just like a little kid thinks their parents know everything. I thought that at a certain point in my life I'd just know what to do about certain things, how to handle them, and the path I'm supposed to go would just become clear, but, surprise, that isn't the case. It's equally exciting and frightening to me that sometimes in life you just have to jump and hope for the best.
In my 20th year I want to jump, whole heartedly and head first, and try to enjoy the "figuring out life" parts just as much as I enjoy the "easy, already figured out" parts. I want to think less and dream more. I want to fear less and do more. I want to judge less and love more.“” - Amy Poehler
More so now, than ever, I feel like I'm starting to see who I am, in the sense that I know what I like and what I don't, I know what things are important to me and what things most definitely aren't (thank you high school for that), and I know what kind of person I want to be. I don't stand for people treating me (or others) in ways they shouldn't and I don't let people change me, unless it's for the better.
This past year has brought me so many blessings and opportunities. I've strengthened old friendships, made stellar new ones, visited places I'd only ever dreamed about, and prepared to go to my favorite place on Earth. I feel so lucky that I've blogged so much of it and can always look back on it.
Today, I am looking forward to a day of princess pampering, time spent with my family, and trying desperately to close my already overweight suitcase before I leave tomorrow!