This year I really want to focus on being an uplifting, supportive, kind, funny, joy to be around, kind of person. Not trying to say that I'm not, but I think that I can definitely improve by being more attentive and thoughtful. I think the smallest things like a handwritten note or even a perfectly timed text message during a really stressful day can be a big deal, and I want to start sending them.
We talk about this concept a lot in my bible study group, and I really want to pay attention to it in 2015. I talk about my faith all the time with anyone who asks, but I think that there's a difference between talking about it and living it, and I want to pour all the good things into others and never be a drain on those good things.
Oh school...we have a very tumultuous relationship. What do I want to do when I graduate? What degree should I graduate with? How many hours will be the perfect balance between pulling my hair out and gliding through? Why am I paying people to stress me out? And on, and on, and on. This year, I'm ending my junior year and starting my senior. I need to buckle down and focus (and maybe actually go into LSU's library), but I also need to slow down and enjoy my last bits of college before it's all gone. Coming off of study abroad where I basically never went to class and got to travel to cool places every weekend will not be a fun transition, but I'm going to focus instead on the fact that these trying times now are laying the ground work for me to be able to go back to England (and Europe) once I put in the hard work.
This year, I want to be a doer, not a doubter. I don't want to waste time worrying about every little thing when I could just be figuring it out along the way. Studying abroad was a big step for me. One that I wasn't so sure about, but I just jumped in without looking back, and it panned out wonderfully, which is why I'm setting a resolution again this year to be more of a "yes" girl.
And now on to the cheesy stuff. I am at a much more confident, self assured place this year than I was this time last year, and I could probably say that about every new year since high school. I know who I am, I know what I want, and I know where I want to go (for the most part), and I really cherish that as a blessing. I've been through a lot of things in my short little life and I know I dream really big sometimes and people don't always see what I see or understand, but I'm going after those things full force, and trying to constantly remember that I'm not in competition with anyone, nor am I trying to impress anyone. In 2015, I am going to be who I am and be fiercely proud of it, instead of over thinking every little thing that comes out of my mouth and tailoring my views and beliefs to the people who criticize them.
2014 was a year of great travels for me. I went to so many cool places and met so many cool people and I'm making that my priority in 2015. Not buying all of J.Crew's new releases or eating out and getting Starbucks 4 times a week. I've made some really great friends in England and I want to go back and visit them, but in the meantime, I want to make Skype-ing and texting/messaging a priority, because it's all too easy to let friendships fade (especially with a 6 hour time difference) and even if I have to bug them 24/7, I'm not letting that happen. (;
In 2014 I started my little project of appreciating every little thing, whether it be as small as a good parking spot or as big as a family vacation to my favorite place (in America), and I want to continue that in 2015. I noticed such a difference in how happy I was after I started taking the time to be more thankful for all the small things (points if you sang the Blink 182 song just then), and I never want to stop doing that, because life can be really sucky sometimes, and finding ways to be happy about the simple things is really the only way to make it great.